When the pandemic started, I stopped brushing my teeth in the morning. I don’t know why. Well, I do, though. I rationalized it a little like this: I am working from home. No one sees me. I won’t eat breakfast until 10. I need lots of coffee in the mornings, so I don’t want to ruin my coffee with toothpaste. And so on. I would … Continue reading The 460th Day of March 2020
Our friend Brandon died this week of a brain tumor. Brandon was the shit. He was funny, smart, active – a trusted friend, a caring husband, a great dad, a thoughtful person, just the guy you knew would always be in your corner. Even if he was across the country, he would be the first person to encourage, throw out a joke, just A. Great. … Continue reading Got to Be the Way It Is
So this is our new normal. At least for now. For the time being. For the foreseeable future. I have never heard all the world so still in a city. I have never been afraid of the night like I am right now, sitting in my own backyard at midnight on a Saturday. Stripped of the comforting sounds of distant freeways, people chatting across the … Continue reading Night Bird
This is a love letter to my sister. She is 9 years older than me. Here is what I know: She loves horror fiction. She loves Dan Fogelberg and Kansas and Pink Floyd. Her laugh is the best, and she laughs a lot. Time and all kinds of miles in between us and there is not a day that goes by that I am not … Continue reading Don’t Wait
I’m on the Pacific side this flight, Looking out to the giant blueness, Reading Freeman’s Dictionary of the Undoing. I think about my wealth of privilege. I think about how I have started this decade by paying an artist to adorn my One Body with her rendition of my protector. I feel good about how this transaction benefits both our lives. About how it might … Continue reading We Need Undoing
I’ve been thinking about my father a lot lately. Which I know is kind of a normal thing to do for most people – to think about their parents, whether they are living or deceased. While it may be normal for most, I’ve never made a lot of space in my heart/brain for thoughts about my dad, minus the times when I absolutely had to … Continue reading Closer Than You Think
Dogs are the best part of us. We love dogs with our whole hearts – we give them the unconditional love and support we as humans wish we had, and wish we could give to other humans. But in my many years of living, I have found that no love is like the love we have for this wide-eyed, cold-nosed, beyond loyal companion. And I … Continue reading Dogs, Man.
This may be a jumbled mess, and for that, I apologize. My brother-in-law took his own life a few days ago, and I am doing all I can to process and help my husband process all the feelings and emotions that go along with suicide. It is more than I can put into words. I wish I could have given him more. I wish he … Continue reading Writing to Reach You
Well kiddos, it’s been a beautiful nightmare. So much (fill in the blank with your favorite expletive noun) has happened this year that it only makes sense to count it down, say goodbye, write retrospectives, and come up with an all-time winner for worst fucking moment of 2016. I’ve got quite a bit of reflecting to do, so go make your tea or grab a … Continue reading One More Day of This Dumpster Fire Year
I had no idea how impacted I would be upon hearing the news that a great light has ceased to shine in this universe. But now, even writing that sentence, I question it: Will his light ever cease to shine? I read somewhere among the thousands of words already written today that the connection with Bowie and his music is so personal for each and … Continue reading It’s Not Just About What He Meant to Me
Pocketful of Venom 
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